Tonight I took Adalyn for a date night. I will never know how much Andrew’s colic has truly affected Ady. When you are one on one with Ady she is the most delightful and intelligent little girl. She can light up my world. I struggled terribly going back to work when she was a baby. I wanted to spend every second of the day with her. I think the hardest thing of all of this is that now that I have the ability to stay home full time the fact that I still don’t get to have Ady home full time with me. Ady by nature is a very smart girl and needs to have constant activity and attention. It was very hard for her to go from being at school full time to cutting back and staying home with me full time. I decided to keep her in daycare part time 3 days a week to help her with the transition. I feel so guilty when she is at school and I am at home with Andrew. The days she is at home she is so restless. I can fill the day with endless activities but she still seems like she is missing something. Ady acts up a lot around Andrew. I think between his screaming and the demand he has put on his parents and the attention he has taken from her has really affected Ady. I will never know to what extent. I have tried so hard to do what I can to help her through this as much as I can. When I see that she is really having a rough time, I try to do Momma/ Ady nights. I don’t know who enjoys them more to be quite honest.
Tonight I took Adalyn for a date night. I took her first to TJMaxx. I had a return. I took her back to the kid’s section and let her pick out something. Anything she wanted. Of course she went for the books. She loves books. She is 3 and a half and loves to look at the pictures and tell you the story. Ady picked out a book for herself and then we picked one out for her brother. When it is just the two of us Ady listens so well and I believe its because she has my undivided attention. We then headed to dinner at a pizza/pasta joint called Danny Boys. We crawled into the booth and ordered penne pasta and pizza. As we waited for our food we read Ady’s new Halloween book she picked out. We giggled as we read. As we ate we giggled. I enjoyed Ady like I have not had the chance to do in so long. We just giggled. We giggled through our Pasta, through our Pizza and then through our ice cream. I could not even tell you what we laughed about. We just giggled. I feel like Ady and I just get each other. We can be so silly and I think that is what she longs for from me. I think the days I get consumed with Andrew she just misses the silliness. We share such a special bond and I will never know how much I have hurt her feelings by being so consumed with Andrew. I will make it a point to continue to date her. Through all of this, I will make it a priority to take time out to enjoy her. This night was the most enjoyable night I have had in so long. I think its nights like these that Ady and I both need. She brings so much joy to my world.